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I never knew this board existed. I only found it following Tom G's post from the "Best of" collection.

I feel for those of you struggling to kick the nicotine habit. It's by far the most insidious and adictive substance I have had the misfortune to come in contact with.

I started smoking when I was 15 and within 6 months changed to menthol brands and continued till October 1989, 16 years later. I was a heavy smoker, burning 2-3 packs a days and rarely let one sit in an ashtray.

I quit while my wife was pregnant with our first and only child. I took a week off in mid October to work on a rather long list of items to get our place ready for the new arrival. I remember adding "Quit smoking" to the list almost as a joke even though I had tried several times before to stop. But deep down inside I wanted desperately to stop smoking. I busied myself painting walls, assembling the crib and other furniture, laying carpet and a lot of cleaning. My worst times were when I first woke in the mornings and the next 16 hours of the day.

I can't tell you how many times, without so much as a thought I'd grab for my shirt pocket, like a zombie for my smokes. I remember the near panic when realizing they weren't there. So I'd get out my list and get busy doing something positive. Sometimes I'd pray for strength, but mostly I'd pray for peace and for help to stay calm. I also thought alot about the first 15 years of my life, when I didn't smoke. You see, when it was bad I felt like I was gonna die. But then I'd remember that I'd gone all those years without smoking and knew it wasn't true. It was only the habit, the nicotine talking. Knowing that actually helped.

My wife never completely quit while she was pregnant, though she tried. She still smokes today, outside and in the detached garage. I returned to work with 6 days under my belt to a small shop where I was the boss of 4 other guys, all smokers.

It wasn't easy, but it was worth it. I almost never think of lighting up these days. And I'd never be fool enough to think I could just smoke one. I mean whats the point in that? Best of all is the time I've spent with my son, going places and doing things I never could have afforded if I still smoked.

Peace to all of you who are still struggling,
Kurt
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Welcome and congradulations on 20 years and counting. You are right, it isn't easy but it can be done when you are really set on it.

Please stay around because you might be the one who helps someone stick to a quit.
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Wow Kurt! Thanks for sharing your inspiring story.

Like DorMill, I am also asking if you wouldn't mind sticking around and inspiring the newbies who might be having a hard time right now.

We're more than just a support group. We're are caring folks, who like to have parties to celebrate milestones, such as six months, one year, two years. etc. without lighting up.

Those of us who have been here a while (8 years, in my case), feel that by posting here, we feel connected to one another. That is what has kept me off the smokes for so long - the thought of how disappointed the others would be if I picked up a cigarette.

So welcome Kurt. Thanks for sharing. Please stick around.

Hugs.

Verna
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I also thought alot about the first 15 years of my life, when I didn't smoke. You see, when it was bad I felt like I was gonna die. But then I'd remember that I'd gone all those years without smoking and knew it wasn't true. It was only the habit, the nicotine talking. Knowing that actually helped.

It's these variations in everyone's approach to the frustration, that makes this community of helpers really work! Thank you, Kurt, - I never even thought of that one, and it's good! We can never know which little words will suddenly land on the person that is just waiting for some magic to help him make that decision.

Maybe send your wife over here?

Jan
(nine year veteran of this unholy war)
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oops! Meant to sign that Cat (even though Jan is my name;o)

losin' it,
*!*
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Dear Kurt,

Hope your son knows what a great Dad he has.

Shelley
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Gee,

Thanks for all the kind comments...it really means a lot. I would be very happy indeed if some small little bit I wrote helped someone, anyone else to get through the day, or maybe just the next ten minutes. Sometimes, that's all you need to worry about.

Hope your son knows what a great Dad he has.

He sure does, I remind him on a regular basis! 8-)

Thanks again,
Kurt
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Amazing. I cannot even imagine 20 years.



Great post.


I wish you well..........and smoke free....


Tigorious
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