Hi Teenie
I found this note from Tom in the FAQ section on our board - the man has a way with words ... it's in the "most notable quote " section, a lot of good stuff there ... 5 years ago somebody was feeling just like we are now...

Now, it's not that I'm going to *excuse* falling off the wagon, but it's so very important to maintain perspective and keep your eyes on the prize.
The act of, for instance, breaking down for a puff does not represent the end of a journey -- but simply a part of the path you're on. The greatest mistake is to think that giving in, en route to giving up, marks failure, is a deep disappointment, is representative of your inability to quit, and thus becomes an excuse to dive back in and smoke habitually.
Nope. It's just one small setback en route to breaking through and rising out into a world of fresh air, healed lungs (isn't it awesome how regenerative the body is!), into a world of new savings money and more days of life. Congratulations to all of you pressing toward those ends. Again, the first beautiful development is the negative associations with the product, feeling sick starting up again, rejecting the product (rather than punishing yourself for givin' in), just saying bleck to the product and cheering on your gradual, then sudden, then complete move away from it.
Bravo.
Tom