Thanks to all of you for excellent points. I'm contemplating walking away, but the sense of urgency is not dire enough to make me do it yet. I will keep monitoring my psyche and take it one month at a time.


From your description it's not dire at all and never has been.

Quite frankly, it sounds like you're really just looking for someone to ease your conscience by telling you it's OK to go dead-beat on your obligations.

It's my opinion that that should not have any influence at all on your decision, it just complicates things. You're either someone whose word is good or you're not. Don't overthink it.