Fellow Fools,I write this for several reasons, many of which are not clear to me at this point. I do know that I have had a horrible day and so I need to cleanse myself. I also write it to educate (but not necessarily amuse of enrich) members of a community for which I have great respect.I am 27 years old and I have learned more from this community and site than any other, hands down. Today, however, I punctuated a painful, painful lesson - one which I will grow from. It may prove to be the most valuable investing lesson I ever learn.Here's the short story long:I have been a Fool for quite some time - I've got all the books, several pages on the site are in my top bookmarks, I listen online to the radio show religiously each and every week. I believe the Gardner Bros. to be genuine and well-intentioned. I have been to a Fool book-signing. I wear a Fool ballcap. Though I have rarely posted - I have lurked on these boards silently and considered myself a member of this community for quite some time. Many of you are funny, some of you are brillaint. I feel fortunate to know this place.Over the last 2 weeks, I have been involved in the Rule Breaker Seminar. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to get much out of it. Here's why:When the Fools recommended CRA in December, I placed a small amount of my modest, yet not-too-shabby-for-a-20-something, portfolio in it. As you all know, it began to do very well. Enjoying the success and beginning to learn more and more about the company, I continued to buy more. I began to use a "margin" account to buy Celera. I was borrowing from my broker to buy more and more. The stock continued to rise. Things were looking unbelievable from my vantage point.Next, the unthinkable. In the last 2 weeks, Celera has fallen from its high of 276 to 85 at one point today. Why I will never know - perhaps just to teach me this lesson. As it fell, I told myself what a great chance it was...what a sale...what idiots the sellers were, running scared from meaningless Clinton/Blair comments and throwing all biotechs in the garbage...blahblahblah, etc....On the way down, I began to sell my other stocks to get Celera, cheaper (and again, using that MARGIN)I couldn't believe it at 170 and I bought.I was stunned at 150 and I bought.At 130, I sold every other stock I owned and margined myself to the gils. I was all Celera, all the time. And I was convinced I'd turn a massive profit on the swingback.-------------------------------------------------I held each and every share until the bitter, bitter end - which came, (surprise - bitterly!), this morning.When Celera hit $85 a share, my online broker was forced to sell my entire position to cover my margined debt. At that point in time, my shares were not worth the margin debt I owed, much less the required level of minimum maintenance.The fact that the stock bounced 21 points from that makes it just that much more disgusting - though if I had been truly Foolish, I wouldn't have been so outrageously margined and the this morning's brief meltdown wouldn't have really mattered.As I sit tonight - I have no shares of Celera in my account and an account that was worth almost $60,000 and was full of 6 promising, fantastic stocks is now worth $0.In fact, it's worth less - I must send $1,500 to the broker.I wiped out three years of Foolish saving and investing in TWO WEEKS with reckless, careless margin debt. It has almost made me physically ill. BUT I am doing my best to maintain a happy grin and vow to get back on the horse and ride it smarter this time. I really have no other choice. It might be quite some time before I post again at the Fool, needing some time to heal my wounds and focus on my future. But I will be back eventually with a basket of Rule-Breakers and Rule-Makers and I will learn from this tough, brutal lesson.I will again dig in and I will again change my financial destiny. This time, I'll do it with stocks I own and I will not get caught up in hysteria or visions of overnight riches.Chin up, Fool on. I wish you all the best of luck and hope my lesson here helps save someone from doing themselves what I have just done.
globalstreamer 2 thoughts come to mind from reading your post.I'm sorry to see this happen to you and I thank you for sharing your story. I've found that I've learned many a lesson since I've became an active investor in Nov. The one that's hammer home the most is to make sure you're diversified, but for this I had to experience it for myself. I'm trusting that your post will prevent me from having to actually undergo what you did before I learn the pit falls of margin.Thanks againCT
Globalstreamer,Thanks for sharing. I think everyone who invests has a similar tragic tale to tell. Mistakes go with the territory. I could say "You're young. You'll be back up in no time", but words like that don't help at this time. Your loss was a real physical blow - like a death, with all the stages: denial, anger, grief.However, as inconceivable as it seems at this time, you'll get through this. I think you did well to share with this board. We'll wrap our cyber arms around you, and comfort you.
Globastreamer, you have a lot of guts to post your message on this board. My hat is off to you. One day you will think of this as a good lesson and laugh about the amount involved.
Globalstreamer,I was very moved by your story and greatly admire your courage in sharing this story with others. You have a lot of courage. At the risk of sounding patronizing, I really think that someone of your obvious strength of character will do very well ultimately.I have frequently gotten agitated reading messages on this board misrepresenting both the risks of speculative stocks such as CRA and the risks of buying on margin. If I were you, I would consider other resources than TMF. There is an orgainization in Chicago called the American Association of Individual Investors which has a lot of resources to offer those interested in pursuing an analytical and systematic approach to investing. The have a wonderful (very short) book called "A Lifetime Strategy for Investing in Common Stocks" which I found very valuable. Another book (a classic recommeding an investment style now out of favor) is the "The Intelligent Investor" by Benjamin Graham. At the risk of sounding banal, you are very young and should not have trouble earning back the money you lost many times over. And there are much worse losses to suffer in life than temporary monetary ones. Setbacks such as these only count as failures if you do not learn from them.
Globalstreamer,The fact that this happened so fast to you is a wake up call to many of us who have had "the right pick" in a stock and wanted to put it all on just one company. Many of us spent our new found Celera profits, at least in our heads, just before the Clinton/Blair fiasco turned the market and this stock sour.Diversify? Avoid Margin? How foolish. How sorry we are for your losses, for each of us have been or could be where you are today.Good Luck to you young man, you've earned it.
Globalstreamer-Re: post #9140 (everyone should read and learn)WOW! That took some guts to tell people about your unfortunate circumstances. You should know that you have probably saved a lot of people from making a similar mistake by sharing your experience. You should be commended.Hang in there. Much better to have learned the risk of margin accts. in your 20's rather that your 50's.JGH
Perhaps your testimonial is what Greenspan ulimately wants to see. Using discression rather then gambling. We have enough debt at risk as it is. Just look at the National debt.It feels so good to get it off the chest.Blessings.
Subject: The real, real risks of margin. Author: globalstreamer Date: 3/21/00 9:22 PM Number: 9140 Chin up, Fool on. I wish you all the best of luck and hope my lesson here helps save someone from doing themselves what I have just done.Thanks for telling your story.I ran 10,000 to $100,000 and back to $0 in the late '70s.My mistakes:Too many eggs in one basket.Adding to position when stock is going down.My Thinking:If I could run $10,000 to $100,000 maybe I could run$100,000 to $1,000,000. Forgot to wake up and smell the roses: $100,000 in 1978 for a 20 something was a LOT of $.Many Fools - Do not understanding Risk/reward:Buying a stock selling at 100+ times sales is VERY HIGH risk. For no reason, the market could mark-down a 100X sales stock to 50X sales(or less). Not sure but looks like CRA has been marked down from 600X sales to 200X. Some of these 100X sales are going to be BIG winners. Concentrating in 1, not Follish. (I made the same type of mistake, not understanding risk/reward .. won't waste your time with details.... still don't think I understand risk/reward)Good luckSound like you won't make the same mistake again.As for me, still add to positions when a stock is moving down. Slow learner.
globalstreamer,I feel for you man... I do have a note to add on this though... I am in almost the same boat as you. I happened to see the stock when it had hit 140.. So I sold every other stock I had and margined myself to the hilt, just like you did. I got in at 138, needless to say when I saw it hit 85 I started feeling ill as well.. I "THINK" the only difference between your situation and mine is your choice of brokers. I'm with Schwab and all they asked me for when it hit 85 was $720, which has since changed to $410 dollars and I have no doubt it will further decrease as the stock rises. They do some sort of calculation and then apply it my gain/loss. I feel blessed that the stock is back on the rise and that Schwab didn't call my margin when they very well could/should have. I'll pay $29 a trade any day to have that kind of peace of mind..Good luck to you... When CRA gets back to 138 you can bet I'm going to get out of this margin debt... I have never been sooooo stressed out over market activity, as I have in the last few days... Life is too short for that kind of stress.DTMPS.. globalstreamer, who is your broker??? Just wondering...
On the way down, I began to sell my other stocks to get Celera, cheaper (and again, using that MARGIN)I couldn't believe it at 170 and I bought.I was stunned at 150 and I bought.At 130, I sold every other stock I owned and margined myself to the gils. I was all Celera, all the time. And I was convinced I'd turn a massive profit on the swingback.I held each and every share until the bitter, bitter end - which came, (surprise - bitterly!), this morning.When Celera hit $85 a share, my online broker was forced to sell my entire position to cover my margined debt. At that point in time, my shares were not worth the margin debt I owed, much less the required level of minimum maintenance.The fact that the stock bounced 21 points from that makes it just that much more disgusting - though if I had been truly Foolish, I wouldn't have been so outrageously margined and the this morning's brief meltdown wouldn't have really mattered.As I sit tonight - I have no shares of Celera in my account and an account that was worth almost $60,000 and was full of 6 promising, fantastic stocks is now worth $0.In fact, it's worth less - I must send $1,500 to the broker.I'm reading this and thinking to myself, man what a sad story, but the numbers don't seem to add up. Even if you bought all your shares at $170, which you say you did not, you wouldn't get a maintenance call until it got down below $57. And since when does a broker give a margin call in the middle of the day? And why'd they sell all your shares when selling a small amount would probably get you back above the 25% maintenance requirement?Ryno
<<Good luck to you... When CRA gets back to 138 you can bet I'm going to get out of this margin debt... I have never been sooooo stressed out over market activity, as I have in the last few days... Life is too short for that kind of stress.>>..amen....this morning you could here the cries of the sheep...baaaa..BAAAA...as they were led to slaughter....a dead cat will bounce, and this one will, but CRA will likely need to double, or triple bottom in the mid 80's before resuming a move upside....should gap up nicely at the open, as folks pour back in, but as I see it, and IMO, this will be a traders stock for the near term....sorry to hear of the margin horror stories, but as a reader of the Motley Fool, you should have read over and over...don't use margin, at least not with highly speculative stocks trading at 100's of times sales....stocks always go where you least expect them too....huibs..
Dear Globalstreamer,You now have a $61,500 education in investing. With your "degree" in hand, I encourage you to continue as an investor and pay yourself back for this expensive education. One previous poster wrote that investing may be, after all, a process of developing character, and not just a process of developing wealth.Someone related to me a story of a junior executive who made a decision that backfired and cost the company $1,000,000. Called into the boss's office, he asked if he was about to be fired. "Hell,no", said the boss. "I just spent a million dollars educating you! Now get back to work!"You have just learned a very important and painful lesson at a very early age.Now, get back to work! :)Good luck, and thanks for sharing your experience with the rest of us.K2
One of the Top Posts of the Year! Is there such a thing as "Super Rec"? I don't think people really realize how risky buying on margin is.
<<Chin up, Fool on.>>Been there. Rallyed. You will get through this, and be a better "investor" from here.Good luck, Steve
I wish you all the best of luck and hope my lesson here helps save someone from doing themselves what I have just done.globalstreamer,Thanks for sharing.As a new investor, I read about people on TMF making tons of money in less than a year by hitching onto the RB picks or Mechanical Investing and it's a bit disheartening because a careful reading of TMF principles disavow or discourage the risks they're taking (each RB pick is already extremely risky, yet the RB port is comprised of many stocks, not just one).I really appreciate reading your post because I have been contemplating doing something similar. Now, I'm glad I'm diversified and not on margin, though the returns are slower.I will again dig in and I will again change my financial destiny. This time, I'll do it with stocks I own and I will not get caught up in hysteria or visions of overnight riches.Chin up, Fool on.Hope to hear from you again when it's all a distant memory and you can share with us how you recovered.blue
globalstreamer -- Your story is very similar to what happened to me in 1991-2 where I turned $5,000 into -$5,000 while passing through +$30,000. Margin ultimately does this to everybody who uses it, and if I were king of the SEC I would ban it. Everyone thinks they have the discipline to use their 'power' wisely, but everyone goes crazy sooner or later. Anyway, you are young. You will rebuild on a much firmer foundation. Good luck to you. azurefox
Best of Luck.
Just a thought but maybe the slight rebound yesterday was due to a short squeeze? Anybody thinks that it will act as a catalyst and stop the free fall? I would love for this stock to start trading sideways for a while.
<<<I wish you all the best of luck and hope my lesson here helps save someone from doing themselves what I have just done.>>>Hey! Money's not important. The important thing is all those recs you got from your post!!!
There is not much that can be said to ease your pain, it is something you must find within yourself. You have tremendous courage in posting your experience and I suspect, based on that courage, you also have the strength to get through this. It is important to learn from our experiences, both the good as well as the bad, which you indeed have. The fact that you have shared this with countless others is remarkable and very generous. Such insight is a priceless commodity. Hopefully you can take pride in knowing you have prevented someone else from having a similar experience. If it is of any comfort, my thoughts and prayers are with you, along with my gratitude.
GlobalStreamer,Thanks for sharing that. I myself have had a similar buying pattern with one of my holdings. Although, I barely escaped without having to liquidate.Just by reading your post, It seems evident that in the not to distant future you'll forget this event and look upon those losses as small change in comparison to what you will accumulate down the road.Best of luck,V>
Just so you know, I found this post via the Berkshire Hathaway board. Your experience is an absolute tragedy. But in reading it, I have decided to cancel a potential purchase of a stock on margin that had, until very recently, fallen quite far as well.I think yours should be the post of the month, it shows the vagaries of the market, the hazards of overextending, and that stock movements are not just theoretical constructs without impact in the real world.I'm sorry for your loss, but it has served as a valuable lesson to me, and hopefully many others.Thanks
I doubt it has as much to do with which broker Global uses as with how much over his margin call he was. Believe me, Schwab would have no trouble doing the same thing to you or anyone who was sufficiently over their margin call. The $29 trades don't buy you anything in my opinion except a smaller bank account.
Dear Global S..team ER , Couldn't you buy yourshare with a credit card. Will brokers accept theseBenKea THINks not. If not why not?I do like your honesty and frankness, AND i DOTHINK there Should be possibly a board for "MISTAKERS"AND and BANKRUPTCY SUPPORT BOARD.( I am quite seriousabout this... .Hey remember if you're young itseasier to start again..
Globalstreamer....I read your post and broke out into a cold sweat and more than a few teary-eyed blurs trying to look at the monitor....that is So Sad....I feel very badly for you, but, luckily, you are young enough to overcome something like this and you've learned a very valuable lesson.You'll bounce back in no time, I'm sure -- and much wiser (not Wiser<G>) for it.Best of luck to you,Sharyn
Another margin tragedy story:http://messages.yahoo.com/bbs?action=m&board=7078692&tid=mstr&mid=6764&sid=7078692Lost it all in the MSTR debacle. Very, very sad, if true.Ed
Dear Globalstreamer,As another poster commented, your original post has some qualifications of a 'Super Post' as it is a reminder that the market and the tools (margin) at an investor's disposal can expose the participant to some very real and serious risks.At the same time, I have to point out that there are some inconsistancies in your story. If one of our Foolish goals is to educate, then let the material be as accurate as possible especially when talking about sharp and powerful tools like Margin lest someone hold it the wrong way and cut themselves.As poster RyanD in message #9179 pointed out first, I too have a problem with your margin call numbers. Please explain exactly the steps and their timing that resulted in your total loss. As I understand margin, you should still have some of your investment left despite your poor buy/sell timing.As a more serious matter, I'd like to refer other Fools to your own post #227 of 2/27/2000 on the 'Rule Breaker Seminar/Assembly Line (A-B, 9-0)' board where you write.."my investment in Celera rose to the tune of nearly $60,000. (On Thursday, that investment netted me more than I earned working the whole of last year!) The fact that most of it is growing tax-free in a ROTH IRA makes it that much sweeter..."As I understand Roth IRAs, you are not allowed to trade on margin in one, so again I find it difficult to believe your story about how you lost all your money.I apologize for being suspicious (I'm trying to be a Foolish investor after all) while your general lesson is a good one and especially when you write again and explain to us exactly what happened.If however some of what you wrote was fiction then I'd kindly ask you to keep yourself to boards on some website dealing with prose or fantasy. There's already enough fiction in all the information us Fools have to sort through as investors.-Jacko
This post should be required reading for all investors.An expensive lesson but on the bright side you are really young. I was 10K in the hole at 30 in 1991 and am now in good finaincial shape. Chuck
Dear Globalstreamer,I read your post with an uneasy feeling in my stomach. My empathy goes out to you ( and the others who lost their wahzoo's the last week ). I must confess that I came very close to making a giant mistake as well. My wife told me about Celera several months ago anf we started our DD on the company. I had lost the Fools for about a year and was unaware of their RB strategy, and concluded that, based on "wise" investing strategies, that we would be crazy to invest our very hard earned money ito this company. Alas, I clicked on an old favorite bookmark, Fool.com, and what company did I see that had been added to the RB portfolio!!! With incredible returns and the blessing of Fooldom, I re-examined CRA. After reading the RB rules, and fully understanding that any RB is a risk, I dropped this years Roth IRA contribution into CRA. We got in at $151 post-split. We were tickled as it shot to $279! My wife caught me exploring home equity loans on the web. She knew what I was thinking and kindly aked me not to jeopordize our home and reminded me that we have three little ones that need a roof over their heads and alot of financial support. Only because I am currently the sole provider for a family of five did I not lay it all on the line. Something held me back, and it was my responsibility as a husband and father that did. Still I thought that WE were missing out, but then last week Clinton dropped the BOMB, although most who follow this board and did their DD knew it was an "empty" bomd, the market did not take it that way. As a clinical psychologist, the herd mentality ( yes, of which I have found myself wrapped up in too ) of the market is very interesting to me. I read the statement when CRA was at 180, and after my sell executed, I was relieved to realize that I sold at a small profit. I kept a few shares because I do believe in CRA, and I almost bought back in yesterday, but I bought stocks that I know and will provide a much less riskier increase to my hard earned dough. I may still but back in, but with money I can lose, maybe 10 shares or so.Anyhow, your mistake will remind me ALWAYS that when I get that feeling NO way can we lose on this one, that we just might. Denial of risk is dangerous and at the same time you can only profit by taking SOME risk, hopefully those of us who were touched by your post will make the assessment of risk based on reality and not fantasy. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I have learned from it, as well as from all the people who post here frequently i.e. heihojin, azurefox, dave (welcome back) featherstone ( who I admire for his open and honest posts as well!), etc.Good luck and Fool on!Sincerely,Jim
Bulls make money. Bears make money. Pigs get slaughtered.That is an expensive way to learn this lesson.I wonder if the Fools-that-be should move you lesson up to the top of their list. Your young. You can start over.You will NEVER make this mistake again, eh?Best of luck!To the moon,RalphDisclaimer: Alice thinks I am an idiot
Global - there have been many replies and I probably can't add too much. Because I am your age and have recently learned the same lesson you have, however, I feel a connection with you. Mine is not as drastic, but I too lost money. Words probably don't mean much to you now, but I want to leave you with a brief message. I recently started reading "Think and Grow Rich." A classic and long-accepted novel written by Napolen Hill about being successful in life and wealth. One of the strongest points he makes in the book is that the wealthiest, most powerful men in the nation at that time lived through a huge "failure" before they became a success. He says:"One of the most common causes of failure is the habit of quitting when overcome by temporary defeat."He tells the story of R.U. Darby who stopped mining and sold all his equipment. The man who bought his equipment brought in an expert who told the man that Darby had been three feet from the gold. The man started mining and there was the gold. The point here, obviously, is that Darby used that lesson and became immensly succesful.If you have not already left fooldom for the time being and actually read this, I mean it when I say I feel for you. Take care and I wish you all the luck in the world. Ryan
Good luck to you... When CRA gets back to 138 you can bet I'm going to get out of this margin debt... I have never been sooooo stressed out over market activity, as I have in the last few days... Life is too short for that kind of stress.Nooooo NOOOO!!!!! You missed the point entirely!The margin call comes if the stock goes DOWN. To protect against the margin call you have to reduce your margin NOW!Take your losses like a Man ( or a Woman as the case may be). You shouldn't have margined in, and the sooner you get out of margin, the safer you are.To the moon,RalphDisclaimer: Alice thinks I'm an idiot
Hope the lesson **isn't** to avoid margin.Here are the "rule of thumbs" I've picked up on margin on the TMF:* No more than 10% margin.* Margin stocks with low volatility.* Pay off the margin "soon".Margin is like a credit card. Not inherently bad, but be careful how you use it.Meanwhile, on the Mechanical Investing board, someone used the high-risk Relative Strength strategy and quadrupled his money. It's a different topic, but still is a warning against any high-risk strategy.http://boards.fool.com/Message.asp?id=1030013011191000&sort=idWashu! ^O^
"Bulls make money. Bears make money. Pigs get slaughtered"Pigs get FAT. HOGS get slaughtered.One of these days, Ralph......Regards. Jim
As requested....Post #9288.
globalstreamer: You are not alone. I did the same thing 15 years ago at the advice of my BROKER. I hadn't educated myself enough to know that all my broker cared about was his commissions.I want to thank globalstreamer for having enough guts to share that story with our community. I told no one and it ripped me up for a long time. Further, I stayed out of the market for the last 15 years and missed what they are calling one of the greatest bull markets in history.So, globalstreamer, here's hoping that you read this, or that someone provides you with this link, because many people have done what you and I did, but most do not have the fortitude to first admit, and then second learn from, their mistakes; BUT, you do and you have. Just don't make the same foolish mistake that I did by staying away for the next 15 years. You have youth on your side and you will easily make it up.My new moto after my experience is: Education costs, but education pays.dessling
You guys made it to marketwatch:http://cbs.marketwatch.com/archive/20000322/news/current/all_aboard.htx
globalstreamer, I hope you will continue to monitor the boards. Your message is powerful and one that we can all learn from. Thank your for sharing your heartbreaking experience.Sometimes the lessons we have to learn in life are pretty hard come by. For me, the lesson was learned several years ago, but it, too, was not an easy one to swallow. The process, however, tends to make us stronger and wiser in the best sense of the word!God bless you.rositze
Thanks for writing this,brave soul. You are right , you will benefit more from this than you can know now.I have been there. You have the outlook and balance to succeed, many have not & there could be difficult times ahead.
globalstreamerThank you for your story. You have shared a valuable lesson with all of us and that makes you a great teacher. You feel like a beaten puppy today, but you have probably saved hundreds of other people from the same mistake. The stock market is very similar to gambling. Perhaps far more people make a little than lose a lot, but one should never borrow money to gamble. You are the stronger Fool for learning this in your twenties, and the greater person for having the fortitude to share with us. Thank you, and Bless you.Gretchen
globalstreamer,Hey man, I know that is not much consolation but man, you dang post has like 423 recomendations! That has got to be a record for one post and heck, it should make the fool hall of fame.!!!!! You'll be back I am sure.
Thanks for sharing your experience with us. It was well written and sincele. What struk me most from your post was that it made me feel for the first time a strong sense of community of our cyber fools. I would like to see more post exchanging experice -- good or bad.Re. margin trading, I thought about for a while and have contacted two brokers specialise in this areas, but never jumped the ship. It is high risk strategy. Your experience certainly teach everyone a lesson. But I think, we should not shunt margin trading altogether. It is useful instrument. The essential thing is to know when to cut loss and run. Keep disciplined and set a loss limit.Thanks again for sharing the experience. Please do not leave the fool community.
To Globalstreamer: I winced as I read your plight but thank you for generously recounting this very painful and all too familiar lesson which we all can learn from and which I too have suffered. However, I disagree with your analysis of the problem; that is that margin is the culprit. The use of margin can be a very useful tool if used properly. My mistake was not setting stop limits or trailing stops and, I dare say, you suffered from the same malaise. I now set stop limits as I struggle to get back on my feet and as each stock rises, I adjust the stop higher to protect my profits. If it tanks, I'm stopped at 8% of the previous day's close and live to fight another day. This system can be flexible based on your own daily criteria; mine are based on a charting tool called Telechart 2000. I hope you find this useful as you rebuild your portfolio. Good luck to you!
Great, great post, but such a downer for you personally to loose so much so quickly. I, like you, bought 100 CRA @ $195. I bought another 100 today at 115. But I buy straight up, never on margin. And this stock is only one of thirty some odd stocks, believing that diversification is not only the best way to go (at least for me) but is the smart way to go. I've made money on solid blue chippers over the years, saw them lose value the last six months or so, but held on because I knew they were solid companies with promising futures. Sometimes I added to these stocks after they fell "too far", but mostly I just held on. Once again never anything bought on margin. The last year I have begun to invest in more foreward-looking stocks; internet, technology, biotechnolory. I know there will ups and downs, but I look more at the long term, not the short term. I am 56 years old and depend on my stock investments to allow me to retire one day. I have been a dentist for 30 years, and to tell you the truth it is not as fun as it used to be. I did not even start investing until I was 40 years old, so many many things to pay for (school loans, office and equipment, house, etc). You are doing the right thing, even if it did turn out "foolish", to begin your investments early. Don't dispare. Do the research, believe in the companies that look strong now but even more so in the future, and don't be greedy. I wish you every success in the future.Kenneth L. Ramsey, DDSklrkkr@aol.com
Take heart globalstreamer.You have learned at 27 what most of us have learned at a much later time in our life. I think you are going to do just great.ALec JOnesMarietta GA
Dude!I feel very bad for you....I hope you learned a very important lesson.....If a company makes no money...let alone no revenue....what are you buying! I know it has promise but there are so many other companies that have great potential AND make money!!!!!
I don't own Celera(I barely know what they do),but it took 3 seconds to decide to read a post with 500 recommendations.After reading it, I see why it garnered so many rec's.(mine incl'd.)The original poster received many compliments,as he well should have. I don't care if this is cyberspace: anytime you "stand up," so to speak,and candidly say,"I lost $60 grand through my own stupidity!" you're gonna' get respect. Many lurkers who've been burned for only a few hundred(Yeah,thanks DELL...a "timer" I ain't) would grouse silently,cursing,but certainly never posting for the TMF community to behold. Well,count me in on one of the hundreds who took this poster's message to heart. He succinctly described the chronological unwinding of his port,painting himself as a margin-greedy 27 year-old with a hanging head. Thank you very much for your refreshing candor,original poster. I've got kids about your age and I certainly learned from you. I'd wish you best of luck,but as smart as you undoubtedly will be in the future,you won't need it!
Thanks for sharing this. It is a sobering warning to the over-eager investors among us (include me). You have youth on your side - you will be back, and wiser the next time.God luck
Globalstreamer,Your post is currently at 512 recommends. That ought to tell you how much people appreciate you! I admire your guts to tell your story. I can't say I know how you feel or that I would have the guts to tell the world, but I can tell you that if you haven't already noticed, you have found a valuable commodity - people. People who care about you!Keep in touch and in fact, I have been looking for someone with your experience. You would be a VERY valuable asset to my ongoing-after-seminar-discussion-group-for-stock-picks. Please say you'll be there!-MQ
Good Luck! Your starting again at an age when I was still thinking about next week. It is hard, and you'r right that a cleansing is the best thing now, so you can get going again sooner than later.You can do it, I can tell by your message that you will not give in the loss, but move on soon.
GLOBALSTREAMER,I'M SORRY THAT HAPPENED. I THANK YOU FOR HAVING THE COURAGE TO SHARE YOUR STORY WITH THE REST OF US FELLOW FOOLS. IT HAS HELPED ME TO RETHINK MY FUTURE INVESTMENT STRATAGY. GOOD LUCK TO YOU.
"Margin ultimately does this to everybody who usesit, and if I were king of the SEC I would ban it.Everyone thinks they have the discipline to usetheir 'power' wisely, but everyone goes crazy sooneror later."Egads, an enemy of my Freedom! Please ban gambling, liquor, cigs, guns, cars and lawn mowers also so that I might be protected from myself!Pete
Thanks for sharing your plight with us, globalstreamer. Your seminar colleagues are one in wishing you a speedy recovery.Fool on!Lee
Thanks for sharing. I will learn from you. I was going to start trading on margin. I had the same thoughts as to trying using margin to enhance my account. I had decided to learn more about it. Thank YOU for stoping my thoughts on the subject.
Your story will surely help others.There should be more talk about diversification. Some investment professionals say don't put more than 10% of your money even into your favorite stock.And lately I've been thinking that $1 of earnings is the same whether it is Campbell soup, Rambus, Celera, Apple or International Paper.Fool On
at least he learned this valuable lession as a 20 something!! it could be much worse , ive known a few in the last few years who have learned that lesson but its come when they were in there 40s and 50s with much less time left to try and get backon a sound footing !!
globalstreamer-(This is more of a personal message for globalstreamer, but all are more than welcome, and encouraged, to read on.)I'm sure many Fools will agreee with me, and so may have already said it, but I sincerely feel for you. Not only as a fellow Fool, but as an honest, respectable person. Reading your post gave me goosebumps. I am but a young Fool, 19, and I have learned about much more than investing at the Fool.com. This is without a doubt one of the best organizations that I have had the priveledge of participating in. Despite the fact that most of us are only words and thoughts to each other, there is a special, mysterious comraderie between each and every Fool that is and will be. I feel we are all family. I attribute this to the fact that as Fools we share the same goal: to educate, enrich, and amuse. Knowledge is priceless and you, as well as every other Fool, are more valueable than I ever imagined. As I know you understand, every failure, and success, is a chance to learn and enrich this precious chance at life that we have received. Again, I commend your honesty and I have the utmost respect for you.I know you may not be in the most jolly mood, and I mean no offense with this comment, but, in my opinion, you only lost numbers.Keep your face to the sunshine and...ROCK ON FOOLS!!lbmoney
If there is a silver lining in this, you'll save a few bucks on taxes next year!Sorry, couldn't resist. You da man.- Darell
globalstreamer >>>> account that was worth almost $60,000 and was full of 6 promising, fantastic stocks is now worth $0.In fact, it's worth less - I must send $1,500 to the broker.hi G,i feel sorry for your investment loss, and i applaud you for your courage to warn us foolish investors to the risk of using margins. Like you, I also use margin. My current margin is about 20% and I was trying to sell some stocks last week but I am not the kind of person who would take an investment loss. Luckily for me, the market is doing better, and so tomorrow will be a day for profit taking and margin reduction. Oh, I think these margin rates at 9.25% are compounded monthly .
Started to write, "Think positive." I should be smacked! Seems like greed and too much positive thinking are the problem. Not margin debt. I wanted to buy CRA at 39.00!!!!!, but did not have the funds at that time. If your initial investment was low, your profit at 276.00 would have been astronomical> How much money did you think you should make? Why on earth didn't you sell above 250? am writing this , as much for my benefit as for yours. I own GOTO, at 96.75, KOOP at 40.00, NBCI at 73.00, COMS at 107.00, CORL at 34.00. I have made a good bit of money this year on other stocks, but can't seem to get on the stick with STOP-LIMIT orders. You master selling at a good profit, and I will work on protective stop orders. I believe in margin, but paying lots of interest is for the birds.Good luck to you.Jundy
GS,Man, I so know where you're at. I was 27 in 1987 - in the crash of '87. I was also heavily on the margin, not even for stocks, but for credit... it was stupid. My parents had died in '82, and I was left with a fair amount of money, none of which I was qualified to invest, so I let a Wise investment manager take care of my assets. So, when the crash ocurred, I got hammered. Bad. And learned, as you have learned, the hard way. For a long while I shied away from the market entirely. And then my wife and I had kids, started doing the math, and realized that a naval officer's salary/retirement by itself wasn't going to get us where we wanted to be, reference college, retirement, etc. So we started small, dollar cost averaging, mutual funds (loaded, alas), and eventually built a big enough pile to move into stocks. And now, we're about half way to where we need to be. Our end is in sight in about eight years, if no new thing arises. But we are firmly out of the margin business. And we are maintaining a pool of cash, because you never know when something good might come up. You can get there from here - you will if bear down, and keep up with this site. I wish something like this had been around when I was 27.Good luck,Lexl
I also margined some additional shares of CRA and HGSI on the way down because I thought the prices were great. Unfortunately the bargans got alot better and I sold yesterday because the risk was becoming unacceptable. It cost me 25% of my bioteck stocks to cover at the lower price and I felt really bad for not guessing right with the margin. That was until I read the board tonight and realized how lucky I was to have only a minimal loss (I am not a large shareholder). I believe that margin can be used as an effictive tool but only at very conservative percentages and I was behaving like a kid at a candy sale.
With all the replies posted, you may never ever get to mine, but that's ok. Maybe this is more for me than for you...I bought at 240, and then again at 196, and ran out of cash. Luckily I didn't have nearly as much in it as you, and I didn't do it on margin. But your post -on top of my losses so far (I haven't bailed yet)- has taught me a lesson. I got caught up in this hype and bit hard. It felt a lot like shooting craps when you get on the Pass Line and hit 7 umpteen times in a row. Sooner or later you get 'crapped'. I was no Fool. I wasn't even Wise. I was an Idiot.When I read your post (thru David Gardner's mail), I let out a nervous laugh. It was a lot like watching a Soap, which I believe most people watch to make their lives look tolerable. Someone out there has a more horrific story than you, which -I don't know why- makes you feel better about your own mess.Global, you're human, as are we all. Mistakes are made. Your courage in posting that note makes me believe that your character will take you far in life. You'll be OK.Thanks and good luck.
Thanks for having the guts to post such a heart breaking story. I sincerely wish you the best in the future. Something tells me you're still going to make it big. Best of luck,scoobyfooool
This same lesson was given to me about 30 years ago, before I had a head of grey hair and grandchildren. I lost the whole thing through buying on margin, including my car, house, wife (she was really annoyed), and children. Then I started drinking and lost my job. I had lots of time to think about my investment lesson, but I chose to drink and complain instead of learning how to put my valuable lesson to work for me. Years later I came upon the story of Job in the Bible. I think he was the first man to learn this lesson. He lost more than I did, and he ended up covered in boils, too. But when he started to apply the lessons, it all came back to him. And it came back to me, too. And I know it will come back to you. This is a lesson you never forget, and you will always be comforted by it. Not only that, but you will be able to teach this lesson to others who might be tempted. Strange as it may seem, this is how great leaders are made: by their defeats, not by their victories.
Globalstreamer,It took courage to share this with us. And thank you for imparting another example of Foolish Wisdom, (painful at best), to those of us who like you have toyed with the idea of MARGIN. You are now wise, (no Foolish), beyond your years and unless I miss my guess will surpass many of us in truly Foolish endevors.Best wishes, Bulldog
Dear globalsteamer,This is my first post ever. I am moved by your lesson.Thank you for sharing your experience.I am 48 and only recently an investor, although my message to you is more general than about strictly investing. So far, I have learned that in life it is better to put yourself wholeheartedly in the game and take your licks and learn your lessons than to be safe and secure on the sidelines.I admire you for being the kind of person who can put himself on the line, and I am glad there are people like you in the world.In the long run, I suspect this difficult lesson will have a positive side that is not entirely visable now.My heart goes out to you.Cheyna
I looked at CRA myself back in January, but thought too risky. One thing your post did was strengthen and reaffirm my value investing philosophy. Thank you very much! You learned more in a short period of time than most learn in a lifetime. To paraphrase Warren Buffet on investing:"1) Never lose money.2) Never forget rule #1."Your post reminded all of us the difference between investing and speculating, that to get rich slowly may require more patience and perserverence, but it is much less risky in the long run. My hats off to your candidness. Your post probably saved other people a lot more money than you lost. Karma is definitely on your side now! (But don't count on it in the Market.)~Toddp.s. Don't forget to itemize next year! You and your girlfriend will have some hefty deductions!
Globalstreamer, I have just finished the RB course, but must say your testimony was the most eye opening words of wisdom I have ever read. The course was GREAT, both educating and amusing, but owning Celera and watch it plumet has made for a stressful week. Your honesty and sincerity will take you far in life. I had told my husband at one point that I wished I had bought Cra on margin at about $120, but your testimony certainly taught me a lesson. Believe me 27 is young and you will be a millionaire! Obviously you have the tenacity and intelligence to accomplish this feat. I would have been so proud of my son if he had the intelligence to have accumulated and lost $60,000 at such an early age.Wish I had started buying stocks at 27 instead of + + 27. Good Luck!!! Midlife Crisis Mom
This is my first post after following the Fool Boards for several years, but I was so moved by the candor of the person who lost all his money by buying Celera on margin that I felt the need to say, "Thank you,hopefully we will all learn from your experience and will be forever grateful for your willingness to share it."AKS
Ouch!Thanks for a gem of a post - sorry it had to come at such cost. Good luck
sorry this happened to you and very glad you posted it for all of us to read. thanks and good luck
You are 20 some nearly 30 some years ahead in your learning curve than I am. I know that doesn't make you feel particulary good but let me assure you that with your current knowledge, you will progress and pass me in a few short years. Good investing and stay that way. firstname.lastname@example.org
I have been sitting right where you're sitting,feeling the same feelings.. I ran over 40M down to 8M on a margin account.As disgusting as it is, it is a lesson better learnednow than if you had succeeded, run it up to 100M, or years from now to your dream level,,, and then learned the lesson..I eventually decided.. the market owes me my money back. I will be wiser, smarter, learn,, and get back in it. get it back.
Globalstreamer, your story is a sad but true account of what can happen to those of us (even Fools) when we get caught up in the moment. I own a very small amount of Celera shares and I too thought of selling some shares of good solid companies to buy more shares of Celera. One good quality that has been bestowed upon me by my parents is patience which turned out to be a money saver and a life saver at that for me in the end. I told myself to think about my investment strategy and just wait a while to think about the possible disadvantages selling shares to buy more shares. The only way I got through this whole ordeal was to compare buying on margin in an account to buying on credit with a credit card at high interest. To some this may seem like comparing apples to oranges but to me it is comparing apples to apples. At that moment I realized that I had used all of my Foolish knowledge gained in the Motley Fool books and website to truly understand the power and gratification of buying and holding onto stocks. I applaud your decision to post this message to educate the new Fools and old Fools alike so that they may truly understand what the value of their money can buy. Fool On!!jeffschuele
Read your posting, and wish you the very bestin your next turn of events. I am sure you will beback, stronger than ever.
Wow! I'm conflicted between the emotion of the story and the number of recommendations. They increased by more than a 100 by the time I read through the responses; to #9408. As to the few who doubted the numbers, inaccuracies and missing details come with such devastating confessions. Those super high recommendations are tempting me to make up a heart-breaker post, and since it would be fiction, you can be sure I would have worked out the numbers exactly.washu: Hope the lesson **isn't** to avoid margin.It should be for some. Know thy self.Here are the "rule of thumbs" I've picked up on margin on the TMF:* No more than 10% margin.If you have read all of the Fool you will see some columnists have defended up to 20%.* Margin stocks with low volatility.Or have a very diversified portfolio.* Pay off the margin "soon".There is no real need for this if your rate of return on the margin exceeds your cost of the margin.Margin is like a credit card. Not inherently bad, but be careful how you use it.Exactly. Suitable for some, but not for all. There is a lesson here to be careful with margin, but not to avoid it, if, and it is a big if, you can avoid greed and/or the feeling of certainty. These are present in everyone. It is only a matter of to what degree and how one keeps them in check.What globalsteamer did that was so dangerous is pyramid his position, using the profits from a single stock to buy more of that stock. What was worse was reducing his other positions to concentrate his position even more. I believe in the US you are allowed 50% margin, (70% in Canada on optional stocks!) but some brokers reduce this if you have a concentrated portfolio. That is where a single stock makes up say more than 65% of your portfolio. That alone says concentration is dangerous. They are protecting themselves. Perhaps I am not one to speak since lately I have been using up to 40% margin. But I have a large portfolio, anchored with large positions in Rule Maker blue chips and spread over way too many other stocks. And I have been very successful buying on the rise after a stock has bounced off the floor. I am comfortable with the margin but I will eventually let this work itself down. It is not something I would recommend to others at all. I don't even recommend margin at all unless I am convinced they won't be seduced by it.My cost on CRA is 13.17 and I have not been motivated to buy more. (No, I am not smarter than the Fools. I took much more risk to buy at that price.) I use my profits to buy other stocks. There is safety in numbers; even in volatile stocks when they are spread across different sectors. As well, for those aggressive investors venturing past 20% margin you should have other assets to call upon should the idea of being sold out by a margin call seem distasteful.So no, I don't see this as a lesson to avoid margin. It is a lesson to use margin prudently and a lesson to question one's self-confidence in a single stock. I always have at least ten "sure things," never just one.
Teachers that can reach many with their lessons sometimes are not aware of why or if they teach, they just do!Do not condemn this experience; you have within your grasp the makings of riches both monetary and otherwise...many of us will heed this, some will not. You will receive prosperity beyond your current immagination for sharing this experience! Nature guarantees it!
Thanks for having the guts to post this for us. I have never used margin, but I have seriously considered it several times. Fortunately for me the forms required by the broker were so obnoxious that I decided to pass each time.Thanks again.
Global,I am TRULY, truly sorry that you have had to experience this bitter "lesson", as you choose to call it, and hope that you are able to recover (both mentally and physically) from this horrible experience.Most important though (and it seems like you have chosen to try and put as positive and non-deningrating a spin on this experience as possible!)- DON'T beat yourself up over this. I know it would be very easy to do so, as I have been doing a little bit of this to myself the past couple weeks during CRA's fall, after I bought in at the top (around 245). In no way however, am I trying to compare my experience to the intensity or gravity of yours however.In the end, I think your attitude is fantastic, and I thank you for your willingness to share your thoughts with others on this board, even during the height of your disappointment. Compared to myself, you are still young enough to recover soundly from this experience, and still retire VERY wealthy! "When I was your age" I didn't even have any investments, nor did I have even the slightest clue re: investing in general.Thanks again- thats what makes this community so great!Cheers (hopefully), Al
There, but for the grace of God...With the recent drop in CRA I've found myself on more than one occassion realizing the fact that as much as I follow the Fool and recommend their lessons to others, I have been tempting fate. I was fortunate not to lose my shirt; it could have been quite ugly...about twice as ugly as what you described. Thanks for sharing your misfortune--it drives the point home for me. As a loyal reader of the Rule Breaker I've found myself nodding in agreement to the Fool's words regarding day trading. But like a President who know's it's bad, but can't help himself, I kept going back to what was enjoyable (and profitable)--quick, and not so quick, margin trades. I would usually hold CRA for two to five days; a lot of it, and at a high price: $210, $220, $230Now, I look back and get a bad feeling in my gut when I realize what could have happened if the politicians had just made some comments about the industry while I had all that margin just hanging out there. I can see my self falling into the same trap, buying more. I don't think I would have been thinking about how I was going to realize great gains. It would have been more like being in Vegas and hitting the ATM in hopes of only being down $200 instead of $500.So, thanks for bringing the point home. Sorry you had to be the one to get it, but there are others like you out there. You, however, are probably one of the few who realize it was a mistake; others will not have gotten anything out of it and are blamming others for their misfortunes. Fool on!
globalstreamer,Your story is a heartbreaker....I've never had to fight back tears after reading any of these posts before. But, you are young, you know how to pick stocks, you are on the cusp of unimaginable technological change, and all this will work in favor of your pocketbook in years to come. Thank you for sharing your story...you have helped save thousands of people from making the same mistakes. I was toying with the idea of margin before now. No more! Best to you,R. Martin
Globalstreamer,That was very brave of you to post such a painful letter to serve as an example for others. Best of luck getting back on the horse.--Jeff
Your post is, without doubt, one of the best I have ever read. It should be MANDATORY reading for every investor, young or old. I am 50. When I was in my twenties I had no money and no clue. Twenty-five years later I realized I still had nothing, but I had a clue. Fear has kept me from going down your path. When your 50 the end of the road is closer than the beginning. You have a learned a terrible and wonderful lesson. Consider this. Assume that everthing played out OK with Celera. you margined out and "got away with it". Assume you are now 40 with a net worth of $500,000 and the same situation presented itself. Would you flame out thinking "it can't happen to me? You just went to school. The tuition was $60,000. You now have your degree. You will profit from it the rest of your life. Good luck.Bill
With the balls (aggressiveness) you have to stretch yourself that thin, and with the intelligence and feel with which you wrote your post - $60K is nothing compared to how much your going to own in the future. Keep swinging mate....
sounds like a painfull lesson. I was about to explore the virtues of margin...I'll now think twice and evaluate my need for it. Historically a buy and holder I switched my Co. SEP to self directed IRA (up 28% vs down 4.58% in 3.5 months!) what need do I have to risk margin! thanks again...db
Globalstreamer,At my brother's encouragement, I thought I would write you and share my experience with margin. In 1996 I invested in a company with "great prospects." I just knew the company would do great and so I went out on margin and doubled my holdings. It was at a time when I was moving and was unpluged from the internet. I didn't know about the rumors of my company losing a major contract and even if I did I probably wouldn't have believed them. The night before my son's birthday, the annoucement came. The stock plummetted the next day and I started selling off my winners (including AOL) in order to pay for the margin. But I held onto this company that had been doing so well because I was a believer. Despite having sold everything else off, as I was leaving for work on my 37th birthday, the phone rang and it was my first (and only) margin call. Prior to this, my wife didn't even know I was out on margin or how much. I spent that day coming up with the cash to cover my margin. It was my worst birthday ever. I still refused to sell the stock, however. I remained sure that it was only a matter of time before things turned around. The stock bumped around and for a nmber of reasons it fell all the way to $1 per share. What was once a strong portfolio had essentially been wiped out. As many other companies were ripping up the charts, I spent the next several years rebuilding my confidence, improving my investment technique (I am a die hard LTBH investor who hasn't sold a stock since early 1997), and slowly rebuilding my portfolio. I actually bought more stock at a dollar a share and the company has been one of the great turn around companies of the last few years. I now hold a handful of stocks. Some of them are large cap tech stocks, some are non-tech stocks, and some are small cap stocks. I've been very selective in my purchasing (I'm only back to five stocks thus far) but all of them have done well and my portfolio is now worth over five times what it was worth prior to its demise.The last three years have been tough. It takes a lot to come back into the market after taking a heavy beating. There is so much to learn and so much discipline to develop. I'm convinced that I had to learn the hard way about margin and investing. Even though I had read about the danger of margin investing, I didn't believe it until it had happened to me. I now share my experience with my friends and family in an attempt to allow them to learn from my mistakes. I realize now that if I knew then...I'd be...But the fact is, if only's don't really count much. It's what you do after the beating, after the hard lesson that matters. It is possible to get back into the market. It is possible to build up a portfolio that gives tremendous (but realistic) returns. It is possible to learn from your mistakes, profit from your mistakes, and go on to become a great investor.You are young. The fact is, most 27 year olds are broke to near broke. Financially you're not that far behind but experience-wise you've learned a lesson that can only be taught by feeling the fire of experience.Good luck and never give up,Zero
globalstreamer Man that story sucks. I as a fool without the guts to margin wish you all the luck in the world. Take care, good luck and fool on. Steve
I have lurked on these boards silently and considered myself a member of this community for quite some time.I think this was your first mistake. Because had you tried interacting with other Fools, there's a good chance that you would have discussed your intentions or your actions and would probably have been warned about your portfolio. It's certainly not a good approach or a recommended type of portfolio. Also, margin should never exceed 15 or 20% of your portfolio. Nobody can predict the future.I'm sorry to read that you got hurt that badly. I wish you good luck on your next time around
Globalstreamer, you are very brave to share this sad story with us - it must be hard for you to go through it all again by writing it down for the rest of us to read.However, stories like yours do an awful lot of good to other people out there contemplating doing the same thing as you, so at least it serves an educational purpose.I just read David Gardner's RB report for the day and it says that you are still only 27. If this is the case then for sure you will have plenty of time on your side with which to recover this loss. I certainly hope this is the case with you.We wish you all the best of luck in the future - believe me you will have a good future because you have learned so much already, and thanks again for sharing your story with us - it will help a lot of people.Yours,Jonathan
<<I just read David Gardner's RB report for the day and it says that you are still only 27. If this is the case then for sure you will have plenty of time on your side with which to recover this loss. I certainly hope this is the case with you.>>..well, what really sucks is that he'd have already recovered quite a bit if they hadn't auto-sold his margin account....when stocks are dropping like rocks, margin calls are going off in a vicious cycle, like an uncontrolled fission reaction....I feel for the guy...especially in light of the strong rebound in CRA..
Globalstreamer: I just read your post. I'm sure that I speak for all the other Fools out there who feel your pain.What happened to you could have happened to any of us.You were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Please don't be hard on yourself. The fact is you had to have been very smart to have amassed $60,000 at the "tender age" of just 27. When I was 27 I didn't have a clue what was going on in the stock market, nor did I care. Now at the ripe old age of 40 something I wish I had gotten into the stock market when I was your age.It may seem as little consolation, but you are still young and have plenty of time to benefit from your one time mistake. Because of your knowledge of the stock market etc you will probably outperform 99% of the people in your age bracket over the next 30 years.One of these days when you are old and grey and rich you will be able to tell the grandkids on your Knee how one time many years ago their very successfull grandfather actually lost everything in a few short weeks. It will be a great story, and hopefully a great lesson that they will benefit from, just as you have.Keep your chin up and we all wish you the best of luck.
You may not have a stock portfolio left right now, but you have something else that shines through your message--Courage, purpose, and kindness. With a remarkable combination like that, you'll achieve your life's goals, whatever they are. I have a hunch you'll also find ways to help others achieve their goals as well. I'd bet my own shares of CRA on that-- and on you. I'd also bet I'm not the only one on this board who feels this way.I'm truly sorry for the brutal lesson you got, but I'd rather see you lose $60,000 now than $60,000,000 later.
so sorry to hear about your demise,i really do feel for ya! it is too bad that some of us have to learn these lessons in life the hard way so some of us others can learn from them .your experience reminds me of a mini version of that infamous day of oct.1929, but i am glad to hear that your outlook is still positive. i guess this proves that you can't keep a real fool down for long.hey maybe after a nice rebound and some better luck( and i believe with wisdom and experience you make your own luck )one day you may even be able to laugh about this. from a novice fool
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globalstreamer wrote: Chin up, Fool on. I wish you all the best of luck and hope my lesson here helps save someone from doing themselves what I have just done.globalstreamer, my father left this short note for me to find after a visit with me a few years ago after I suffered a horrifying personal loss of my immediate family. He wrote,Bye,CHIN UP----Love, yourDadFor over four years I've lived in a deep depression and now finally after 5 years I stumbled across this note I had filed away. It now sits at the top of my desk and I cherish the thought of it as my life finally gets back to wanting to live again. I think I can speak from all your Foolish Family that our hopes and prayers go out to you. I just know from your salutation Chin up, Fool on that you will be back smiling amongst your Foolish Family and Friends helping those like myself with your Foolish knowledge. I too am taking the RB Seminar to learn from the Great Foolish Master/Teacher/Mentor. What David has shared with over 20,000 Fools is worth 50 times the amount of admission. I thank you along with all your Foolish Family and Friends for sharing with us your Post.After reading your Post I share d the link with my group in hopes to passing your message on. Many of them are new to the investment world. Lastly I added this to the my Post, since we are all 'Learning Together' to quote one of my favorite TMF Fools 'Spirit. What a tragic lesson to learn. This is the reason I find it so hard to invest in this volatile market with companies PE ratios well above 100 and many with 'no' earnings. It doesn't have to be just 'margin' losses. It could be just your real hard lifetime savings of pure cash.My heart goes out to all who have experience such a great loss in the past few days. All it took to set back a very high risky Industry was a speech by two Statesmen.Please let us all learn from this horrible tragedy. Everyday for the past 2 1/2 years I have been saying the market has to correct. It can't continue this crazy high 'New Economy' upward trend in the Tech sector. Then comes along a new sector called 'BioTech's', and it starts all over again. Sure I made a little along the way like many of you in the Tech stocks, especially since I was in that field a few years back. The BioTech's scared me because I do not know anything about them, even though I know they are the future to curing crippling and death related diseases. Each day that passes I think of the money that I could have made if I wasn't so afraid of this volatile market. Then I read something like this that assures my reasoning that the gain is defiantly worth less then the risk of losing ones life's savings!With all my Foolish Heart,TechFoolRon
Globalstreamer,Dude that sucks. I am 26 and have had my share of bad investing experiences, but never down 61,500, man that blows.I hope that you recover, mentally and financially, quickly. Best Wishes4site
Dear globalstreamer,it's approx. 5:00 AM in chicago and I'm having trouble sleeping, so i decided to check out the fool when i came across your post. now i don't think i'll sleep at all tonight after reading your story. after reading what you went through, i printed it immeadiately and put it up on my bulliten board. THANK YOU!!!!!!! i'm sure it must be painful to recount your misfortune, but i hope you can take some comfort in the thought that someone will avoid a similar fate thanks to your valuable lesson. by the way this is my first post to any message board on the fool, or any website for that matter. i was waiting until i had something really profound or at least significant to contibute, but after reading what you had to say i could't resist. my heart really goes out to you. buck up little camper, you're down but you're not out. there is still time to fight the good fight!!!!!Fool on indeed!
Sorry about your loss and a sincere thank you for sharing.I enabled my margin account about 1 month ago, but when I did I told myself, "20% of Portfolio Max". In early March, I was at about 9% of my portfolio, but the Nasdaq was doing great (I had most of my stocks there), and suddenly Kaboom! My Portfolio fell, the margin component jumped to 15%. Yikes, I have watched my two best stocks lose 35% and 30% respectively. Its really rough because they represent about 45% of my portfolio, and I know they are good stocks.Stay with the Fool, and really build on the lessons learned, I think you can really make a comeback, and what a comeback it will be!!!! Best of luck!Fool On!cmfool77
Well I finally decided to join the foolish crowd and signed on. I have been reading with great interest all the discussion here on Celera. I am fairly new to trading stocks and have been at it less than one year. I have not set up any of my accounts to allow trading on margin. I think after reading of your misery I will continue to do so.I have heard it said that experience is getting the test before you have had the lesson. The main thing of course is that we learn from our mistakes and move on. Wisdom is learning from the mistakes of others. I thank you for allowing us all to gain some wisdom so hopefully we will not make the same mistake.Take Care.
A few posts have questioned the facts. These posts have ignored how margin calls work. While the maintenance in a diversified is 35%, the maintenance in a non-diversified account is 50%. Additionally, brokers are free to require higher maintenance requirements for stocks they deem risky. Finally, during a margin call, if the stock is declining rapidly a broker can liquidate before the call is due, even during the day. This is my understanding.Fool onj.
Globalstreamer...Firstly, I send my heartfelt condolences on your loss - as a previous reply stated - it IS like a death, with all the emotional turmoil....I also commend you on not only your wonderfully crafted missive of revelation - but on the cahones it took to write it....your letter says it all, everything we like to think we knew already, but never quite understand the impact of until someone among us takes it on the chin like you just did...The most important lessons we can learn, we (hopefully) learn usually because someone else learned first - the hard way...But, secondly, I also want to congratulate you on an observation you already made yourself - you're 27 years old...I only began considering the wonderful world of investing when I was already the ripe old age of 30...but since then I have amassed (and continue to amass) a comfortable degree of experience, knowledge and return...not to mention, from time to time, humility....in spades...But we continue, and are wiser for it - and also richer for Fools, like yourself, who have the courage and positive attitude to share their most difficult lessons with each other while still maintaining the belief that they will rise again...as you most definitely will...Chin up, indeed...Fool on, and best of luck, man...
Re: the math on his margin callIn response to Ryno #9179I'm reading this and thinking to myself, man what a sad story, but the numbers don't seem to add up. Even if you bought all your shares at $170, which you say you did not, you wouldn't get a maintenance call until it got down below $57. And since when does a broker give a margin call in the middle of the day? And why'd they sell all your shares when selling a small amount would probably get you back above the 25% maintenance requirement?I don't think this has been fully answered yet, but there have been a bizillion replies to the original post.Ryno, I think you should have shown YOUR math, I think you may have just further confused folks. My calculations seem to indicate globalstreamer was right on...Here are his important statements:At 130, I sold every other stock I owned and margined myself to the gils. ...When Celera hit $85 a share, my online broker was forced to sell my entire positionOK, lets do the math.Assuming 50% initial margin requirement for BUYING stock, at 130 he margined to the max, or had $65 in actual asset value per share (.5 * 130 = 65).When the stock fell to 85, the question is what was is margin level at that point? His asset value is the price minus the margin cost, or 85 - 65, leaving $20 asset value per share. 20/85 = 23.5%, so that would be well below even a 25% maintenance rate. My broker has a 30% margin call, so it would have hit even sooner.So, how can you calculate at what point you would have a margin call? Margin can consist of 100% - maintenance%, or in the case of a 25% maintenance, you can have 75% margin in your portfolio. If margin is 75% of your value, then DIVIDE your margin cost by that to get total value, or $margined/((100-maintenance%)/100),which is in this case (shown on a per share basis): $65/(1-.25) = $65/.75 = $86.67 share price. So with a 25% maintenance call, he was expecting a margin call at $86.67 (assuming a margin of $65 per share).FYI, regarding Ryno's calculation, if he had simply bought all shares at 170 (apparently that was not the case), then the margin call would have been even sooner (170*.5 = $85 margin per share, so 85/.75 = $113.33 share price for a 25% maintenance).Hope that clears it up for everyone. I know margin can be a confusing topic, in fact, Newsweek's most recent issue has an incorrect calculation for margin! (I already e-mailed the auther and he said a correction is to be published soon).I am myself only a recent learner about margin, so if I incorrectly explained the math, PLEASE let me know!I would also like to echo washu's post, 9279, to state that margin isn't all bad. This disaster does not mean never use margin. It means, make sure to understand the math of margin, and use it conservatively as a tool, carefully understanding the risks, especially if the portfolio has high volatility. I personally have about 3% margin and have no firm plans to get rid of it. -nacohn
GlobalStreamer,I think everyone can relate to some aspects of your story. We've all made investment mistakes at some point. Thank you for sharing. I wish you well in the future. The last two weeks have been rough on everyone but they don't tell the whole story. Like life, investing is a journey. A process not a single event. You take the highs with the lows. In the end, the ups outweigh the downs. Stick with it.BradP.S. This is one of the best posts I've seen on TMF. Truly sincere.
You are so lucky,yes,lucky! You are lucky this lesson was learned at 20-something and not 50-something. Can you imagine this scene with $600,000 instead of $60,000? We're lucky too, that you shared this painful experience. Thank you so much for sharing it. Many of us (myself included) tend to talk about the good portions of our portfolios and sort of "forget" about or dismiss the negative parts (and face it, we all have something that isn't performing optimally at any given time). The result? Those we talk to feel like they aren't investing as well and jump into riskier ventures or give up diversification for that need to achieve what "everyone else" has. No one ever notices that not one portfolio out there consistently earns 50%(+), 100% of the time. It is called greed, my friend, as we all race to become millionaires or multimillionaires. It takes a lesson like yours to bring us back to common sense, that is, unless we kept our foolish heads from the beginning.
You have a lot of courage to share your setback. Most people would have hidden this away from the light of day. I want you to know that what you have shared will help many people. Remember, you're 27 and have a long time to regain this loss. But you have a discipline that very few people have - you save and invest. That makes you wise and a true Fool. This all may sound like a cliche, but I believe there's a plan for you. You didn't lose everything and you've done nothing you can't recover from. God Speed!
Man, is that a tough story to read - I can only imagine how badly you feel.As a relatively new, inexperienced Fool-in-training, I too am still learning about this concept known as long-term investing. And I too am making mistakes.I did something that I'm not too proud of with Celera, though not on the scale you did. I too got caught up in the run-up, panicked as the stock price dove, then, before I could do something I'd really regret, I turned my computer off!Anyway, as much as this probably is no comfort to you, there are those of us out there -- still in-training-Fools -- who read stories such as yours...and learn valuable lessons.Sounds like you learned one too - thanks for taking the time to post.
Dear globalstreamer,You have my sympathy. If it helps at all, most of us have "been there, done that"...which doesn't bring back your $$$$ but may help bring back your confidence. You have learned a really VALUABLE lesson about margin accounts....and I bet you will never get caught there again. And you can deduct your losses from Uncle Sam which will be a bit of a sweetener. Fool on!
Thanks for sharing your very unfortunate experience. Curiously, I was just considering utilizing my margin acct for the first time. I will not do so lightly, if I do at all. Thanks again
How refreshing. Someone who actually let the greed factor kick in and told us all about it. My hat is off to you for your truthfulness. Isn't it strange how no one goes to Vegas and returns with less?! Well the same can be said of the market today. No one will admit to a loss in the greatest bull market in history.(almost no one) I have done well these past few years and I do owe a great deal of that to the Fools. In years of past, I to have played a little too deep into the margin crystal ball. I do not need to tell you that it always came back to bit me.Experence can be expensive, but yet in time endearing. Don't let the greed factor be your guide. Time is on your side.
Global-First, please allow me to commend you for sharing this story with all of us. Human nature forces most people to hide from their mistakes. And those who learn from them usually don't share out of embarassment.I'm sorry that you lost this much money, but the fact that you've learned from it makes me think that you'll wind up way ahead.That said, I'm not sure that I agree with the lesson that this shock has taught you.On the way down, I began to sell my other stocks to get Celera, cheaper (and again, using that MARGIN)I couldn't believe it at 170 and I bought.I was stunned at 150 and I bought.At 130, I sold every other stock I owned and margined myself to the gils. The obvious mistake that you made is that you used margin to increase your risk beyond what you could handle. But at least margin compensates you for the added risk with the added return that you deserve.The bigger problem is that you weren't properly diversified. One stock, no matter how good, will always have horrible days. Even six stocks together will have pretty awful days. Imagine (and I know that hindsight can be a curse) that you invested in Celera, using margin, but you were diversified. So maybe 50% of your portfolio was in the S&P, and the other 50% was split up among your six stocks. Even if you had maxed out at 50% margin, you'd still be sitting pretty. Sure, one of your stocks (Celera) would have bled like The Shining, but at only 8% of your portfolio, you would hardly feel it - even with margin. And since the rest of the market has done pretty well over the same period, you might actually be ahead.I wish you all luck in the future,Mike
You Fools can sleep now that CRA is at a decent price. I mean a lot of you said you were having trouble crashing when the stock split and rose to 250 + per share. I'm not a very good writer so excuse the grammar etc in this posting. I just wanted to give some of you Fools a happy ending when it comes to not being Foolish as opposed the poor guy who lost all of his money buying on margin.I have for the last six months of 1999 had been reading and studying Foolishness. I had read these of the books by the Dynamic Duo, The Foolish Four, Industry Focus 2000, The Motley Fool Monthly, You Have More Than You Think, and Rule Breakers, Rule Makers. Being an ex president of an investment club in Las Vegas (yeah try and get a bunch of casino workers to buy for the long term) I understood the philosophy of the Motley Fool and appreciated that I had a place to go and get reaffirmation for my philosophy in this wild market of ups and downs and IPO's. My only trading account is an IRA account that I have with an Online Broker. Being 46 years old and looking for a comfortable retirement would hinge on my own investments. So here I am in the comfort of a bunch of investors who seem to think and invest like I would like to see my self doing, very FOOLISHLY. While looking at all of the Ports the Motley Fool have posted online I was drawn to the Foolish Fur to be the anchor for my portfolio. My next thoughts turned to the Rule Maker Port, which was going to take a little work, but I really love the concept of it. Occasionally I would wander into the Rule Breaker Port and look around in awe and amazement at the monster moneymaker. Then came the trade alert turned for me turned investing into a Jimi Hendrix version of “Were in the Money”. The buy report of the Rule Breaker Port's pending purchase of CRA. I read the report and immediately put an order in for 100 shares to be executed at market price when the market opened in the morning, hopefully around 80 per share. Then I began to read the rest of the buy report. The information Jeff gave appeared to be well thought out and the company appeared to be a Rule Breaker to the max. I looked around the CRA message board for a while then went to sleep.In the middle of the night I had to go to the bathroom and couldn't go back to sleep. I kept thinking about this pending purchase of mine that was going to cost me around $8000 dollars. It wasn't so much the uncertainly of buying the stock it is just that it broke the rules that I had swore I was going to follow in picking my stocks from now on. NEVER BUY A STOCK ON A TOUT! So I booted up my PC and cancelled my order. The next market day I watched the price of CRA go to around $89 and thought that I had missed the boat. Damn that would have been a nice little ride up of double-digit appreciation in just one day. But I had canceled the order and felt good that I did. Well the next day I started to research CRA in earnest and started to like the company more and more. My father had recently died of an immune system type of cancer and I had come into contact with all kinds of medicines that did him no good at all. If this company could do what they thought they could it would be a benefit to mankind. Damn it I'm going to buy some even if it doesn't fit my investment criteria. So I put an order in for 75 shares a market price the next day. Went to sleep reading the Rule Breaker chapters of the “Rule Maker, Rule Breaker” book.Woke up again in the middle of the night and canceled the order again. I still wasn't comfortable with this company yet. I needed to look at it some more. I checked the price of CRA the next day and it closed at $102. Shit now I really couldn't buy the thing it was already too high and the only reason that I could figure out the rise in the stock was because the Fool's had touted it up. Oh well I thought that I had missed good opportunity. Now I'm not the kind of guy who sweats my meager portfolio on a daily basis so I never even looked at my portfolio for the next several weeks. You couldn't help notice that CRA was going through the roof with all of the hysteria in the media as well as the Fool message boards. I didn't feel bad that I had missed the run up and I was still considering buying some of the stock. When I did access my online account something was very wrong about the account. Its valuation was way too high. Ok so I look at my position page and it says that I have 75 shares of CRA at a purchase price of $102 and a current valuation of over $300 per share. Holy cow somehow I did not execute the cancel of buy order. It was a gift from God. I'll hold on to this stock until the day I die and at the rate it is going I will be a millionaire in a couple of months. Ok so then the stock split and ran up to $270 per share. Now Hendrix is playing the song with his teeth, real loud! Ok God has nothing to do with investing in this day and age so I'm going to sell enough shares to double my money and still have 100 shares that I promise I will never sell. Then Clinton opens his big mouth and the 100 I still have plummet. Boy is I pissed. Read the Fool books again I tell myself and remember when you thought that you had missed the boat when the stock went up 15%. So be happy with my investment I tell myself. I really love the company now that it is all free. But to lose sleep because a stock has appreciated too much is not a problem for me. I was more worried early on that I had compromised my investment integrity. So I wasn't very foolish and I have learned a lesson and will be more diligent than ever when it comes to buying a selling stock. At least my story has a happy ending so far….Howard
A classic tale of the difficulties of margin-buying, well written. There comes that time that the buyer can't cover. One step worse is when the broker can't cover. Then it is a small step to when the bank that finances the broker can't cover, and we have a 1929-type meltdown.Bob Brinker said over the week end, that margin debt has doubled since October to $276 BILLION. And he says, "I don't think that money is invested in Quaker Oats !" This is a speculative time that calls for discipline and daily analysis to remind ourselves of the difference between investment and gambling. They are both addictive.Best wishes. You have the best variable in the world in your favor, in the long run. Your youth !
I wish you all the best of luck and hope my lesson here helps save someone from doing themselves what I have just done.WOW...Thanks for sharing... that took guts... I am also 27 and just starting out... and I'm VERY afraid of the concept of trading on margin. I will definitely think back on your lesson learned whenever I get excited about what I might perceive as a bargain buying opportunity.I wish you a Foolish and speedy recovery......Sillyboy
Ryno, I think you should have shown YOUR math, I think you may have just further confused folks. My calculations seem to indicate globalstreamer was right on...Here are his important statements:At 130, I sold every other stock I owned and margined myself to the gils. ...When Celera hit $85 a share, my online broker was forced to sell my entire positionOK, lets do the math.Assuming 50% initial margin requirement for BUYING stock, at 130 he margined to the max, or had $65 in actual asset value per share (.5 * 130 = 65).When the stock fell to 85, the question is what was is margin level at that point? His asset value is the price minus the margin cost, or 85 - 65, leaving $20 asset value per share. 20/85 = 23.5%, so that would be well below even a 25% maintenance rate. My broker has a 30% margin call, so it would have hit even sooner.I messed up. Here's what I did.Say he had 100 shares of CRA, then he bought all his margin shares at $170, so he has 200 shares of CRA and a margin balance or debit of $17,000. The amount of shares doesn't matter, but we'll use 200 in this example. To figure the point at which he would hit the 25% maintenance requirement, take the debit ($17,000) * 4/3 and that gives you $22,666.67 or the amount his account would have to be worth (equity plus margin balance) to be at the 25% threshold. Instead of just dividing $22,666.67 by 200 shares and getting $113.33, I subtracted the debit (17,000) from the total account value (22,666.67) and that leaves $5,666.67 equity. I then divided 5666.67 by the number of shares margined (100) and got $56.67. Wrong!Thanks for calling me on it nacohn, and my agologies to global for doubting him. Ryno
Dear globalstreamer,I feel for you. My first investments were futures. In that arena everything was bought via margins. What I did not know was that the margin could change overnight at the whim of the Chicago Board of Trade. I went from way ahead to $30,000 down overnight. I was phyisically ill. As I watched the price plumet I sold, and one tick later the price of the contract began the soar I had anticipated. I will never margin anything again. Two of my sons have been wanting me to open a margin account because I enjoy trading. What they do not seem to get is that I enjoy trading because I can only lose money I have in the bank.....not money I have to glean from somewhere else. I have forwarded your email to them. Thanks for the honest evaluation of a costly decision. Oh the roller-coaster of adrenilin.It took me 3 years to recoup and again enter the market. Take some Pepto Bismal and start over....soon. Good Luck....and make this an experience you will never repeat.Sweet.
Thank you sooo much for sharing your very painful experience. I'm a new investor and have already been tempted to over-extend thru margin buying. Now, I will never allow myself to fall in that hole....thanks to you. Your tale has made a strong and permanent impression in my memory bank.
Take heart! Your hard-learned lesson is resounding to the benefit of the thousands/millions tuning into TMF today (it made the front page). Surely your courage to make this post and the lesson you have learned will make your future successes even sweeter!In gratitude...TT
Wow. I think I speak for a lot of us when I say that could have been me. How many of us have thought those very thoughts of getting in on the low, buying all we can, and then riding it up. The only difference being, for what ever reason, we did nothing. Maybe out of fear, indolence, or lack of resources. I am glad that you shared your story. It illustrates the difference between trading and investing. I am also happy that you are not discouraged and will be far better informed in the future. Remember that some of the greatest furtunes were amassed by people who had lost everything at one point. They came back stronger, wiser, and more determined to not let history repeat itself. Fool on my Brother!
Dear globalstreamer, Thank you, Dear Fool, for your message. I, too, have engaged in extremely unFoolish investment strategies in the past, at one point losing $19,000 in two hours. My only consolation was, upon confessing this to my best friend, her look of total awe and her words, "WOW! I've lost that much money before...a couple of times...but NEVER in TWO HOURS!" Being that her life was in shambles at that point (from her own doing) it gave her a lift to see someone else suffering some (from my own doing). I was happy to amuse her. Glad to see you have your chin up. Lick those wounds, but not for too long. You WILL be back on top! I know it.
Dude,I feel for you. I have been there. Not quite to your point of having no money in an account, but I have watched well over half of my port. wiped out because of margin.I am sorry to hear of your losses. Hang in there. We are all here in this life to learn lessons. Perhaps that is the secret of life. I wish you nothing but the best and look forward to seeing you ride that horse again in the future.
Dear Globalstreamer,Thank you for your post. You are very brave and kind to share your experience so that others can learn from you. You have learned a hard but good lesson. We must remember to diversify and keep diversified. The unexpected can and will happen. It is good that you are taking the long view. You will be back and you will succeed! In 1987 I was in your position. I bailed out at the bottom of the crash. I got back in at the peak of the bounce and sold at the next valley. I doubled the losses of the crash! It was a tough but good lesson. I'm doing well now. You will come back and do well, too. Keep learning and trying!
Thanks for having the courage to post your margin story.
globalstreamer,Just keep in mind that there are many people that have been in a position such as yours ,tried again and have gone on to become very wealthy in this business.Sometimes it takes a couple of times of being broke but as long as you learn and move on success will follow. Don't ever give up,this is a great business!!!
dear globalsteamer as hard as it is -- it is only money and as david gardner says you are young and in the long run you will do fine.. hang in there and thanks for the warning.
God Bless You. You're young...you have a long way to go and I know you'll be okay...better than okay.Thank you so much for sharing this painful lesson with the rest of us. That took a lot of courage.
Your gutsy post should be a link on the Fool home page forevermore. It may be THE definitive lesson for everyone who visits these great pages--even those who haven't suffered the same cruel fate--on investing smart. Or dare I say Foolishly? I just wish you didn't have to pay the "tuition."Good luck. I hope your next post is how you are going to get it ALL back--and lots more--over the long haul.Essayons
Ahhh, I feel your pain my fellow fool. I learned a similar costly, but valuable lesson by loading up on margined AOL stock a couple of weeks prior to the infamous Time/Warner merger. After attempting to stop the bleeding, I sold in the mid 50s to cover a margin call only to watch the stock hit approx. 72 recently. I too felt this happened ONLY to teach me a valuable lesson.Thanks for sharing.
It takes a lot of guts and self esteem to make a post like this one I just read. Because of that you will come through this and go on to make more than all of us. My Foolish prediction.The old school of hard knocks is the best teacher of all. All the Fool Schools in the world can not teach what you just shared with all of us.Thanks for this very open hearted message.
Man I really feel bad for you. Thanks for sharing.Dad always told me stories about my uncle buying on Margin and not being able to sleep at night, and warned me not to do it. The bright side is that you are young and still have plenty of time to recoveryour loss.Joe
Globalstreamer:Thanks for the post. Though I hate to hear real-life examples like that, it serves to remind me of the course I should be trying to steer. Good luck.
Take Heart Young Man,In 1971 a 34 year old young man got crushed in his own personal bear market. The mutual fund company he started faltered and failed and he found himself with a net-worth of -$100,000 (that is a negative). He was a scrapper, though, and managed to turn it around through dilligence and effort. He even wrote a book that got me started called "How to be Your Own Stock Broker". his name is Charles Schwab. Trust me there is light at the end of the tunnel, it's just a very long tunnel. -sorry but I suck as a poet.Good Luck and God Bless,Gordo
Regarding the guy who margined to the max for Celera.I know how you feel to a point. Doing pretty much the same as you I lost 4000.00 and got physically ill. Had to have a heart to heart with my husband. A most caring and forgiving soul. But it broke my heart that the trust he placed with me I had so stupidly misused.But Life does go on. We have become very Foolish over the last two years and our investments our growing right along with our childern.It is nice to hear that I am not the only one who has fallen into the margin "get rich quick" trap.Best of luck to you and yours.Jo
My friend, I wish you the best. It took guts to admit your mistakes and keep a positive attitude. My good friend has been itching to buy on margin lately, and I'll recommend your post to him. Hopefully, reading your post will stop him from making the same mistake. Know that your difficult experience has caused some good!
globalstreamerYour message is recommended reading for all Fools overhere in the UK. I am sure I speak for many people when saying we are very sorry to hear about what has happened to you. You have courage to post about this and even more if you can pick yourself up and start again. Take heart, as you say there is a reason for everything and perhaps your story will save many other Fools from the same fate. I am sure you will go on to bigger and better things. Do not forget in life unless we experience pain we can never fully experience pleasure.A couple of books which make interesting reading are:Reminiscences of a stock operator - Edwin LefevreConversations with God -Neale Donald Walsch both of these may help in different ways over the next few days and weeks.Good luck and keep FoolishMagic Bat
I feel your pain.Last spring, when the market was up, and everything seemed right with the world, I put $10,000 in a brokerage account and, wisely, began trading options. I thought I couldn't lose. The market was up, and I was heavily into tech stocks. I made $1000 in one day on EBAY. (At a 110% gain, that was one for the record books.)Then the market turned down. I started losing money. I liquidated some positions, held others. My luck changed for the worse. If I was long on a stock, it folded. If I went short, it recovered.Now, a fool would have stepped back, consolidated, and waited until the market played out its little tantrum. But I was too smart for that.I can't really describe, or even understand the state of mind I was in. I watched as my portfolio tanked at the rate of about $1000/day. I kept thinking, "I have to get that money back." I kept buying, selling, and losing.I ended up with $200 in my brokerage account, in a little under two weeks. I was devastated. This was my 28th birthday present.I'm happy to say, I've since become a lot more Foolish. I invested that $200 in Forte, right after they announced their acquisition by Sun Microsystems. The 10 shares of FRTE I bought became 3 shares of SUNW. The 3 shares split and became 6. The 6 shares are worth around $600. I have no intention of selling. I have left that account as a perpetual memorial to the hardest financial lesson I ever had to learn.I recently scraped together $2000 and opened a Datek account. I am investing very Foolishly, thanks to Fools like you. My account was up 6.38% in the week it's been open. Fool on!
I feel your pain.Lost $23k in '97. Learn as much as you can from this.Watch your health (eat right, 'attempt to' sleep well, exercise more than usual) - at this point your future prosperity may depend more on your how quickly and the extend to which you recover your mental / physical health than anything else.also, the $23k I lost is no where near being the biggest mistake of my life. your mistake only cost you money. don't give up. there is life after a mistake.