ThyPeace, sounds like a mid-life crisis. One grows out of it.

In Spanish we say: "No por mucho madrugar amanece mas temprano." English translation: No matter how early you get up, you can't make the Sun rise any sooner meaning that things will take their time to happen no matter what. One should only fret about things one can influence.

I wish you Inner Peace.

Denny Schlesinger