Some thoughts as I read over your words this morning.This is a wonderful chance for you to start fresh. Upheavals in the status quo are forerunners of very positive workings in one's life.A new job with the county will provide financial stability, direction and confidence! You appear to be on a successful track to secure this position.Detachment - from those who really are not there for you, but hamper your growth - is important now. Keep this thought in mind as the phone calls may come in with offers.Surround yourself with good people - say "so long" to those that don't. Stay firm.Break free from old and tired habits - old and tired problems - continue to progress!Wherever you chose to move, be sure it is on YOUR terms and don't allow yourself to be manipulated in any way.I have a strong feelling that some will step up and be willing to provide shelter in the short term.Take care,donna
I echo Donna's views. It seems you are ready to cross the chasm between life as you knew it, and the New Wild Life. As this transition occurs, a lot of old stuff ...old attitudes, old behaviors, old thought patterns, falls away. It may be difficult, but it is going to be very liberating, and you will emerge on the other side marvellously transformed..The New and Wildly Improved Wild (NWIW)..Hang on and enjoy the ride.. Chin up and all like that there...It is going to be amazing. bill
I expected exactly the treatment I received.While I can not excuse his behavior, nor will I suggest that the attitude you take into a conversation influences what you get out of it, I have to agree with some of his observations.While you were sick, I frequently read about your spending money on this like money for FNCCW, money to HG, money or ice cream, money for TC™. These are choices you made, choices instead of paying money towards rent. You made choices to walk off jobs, whether it be Home Depot, the waitressing job or the baby warehouse.I will again risk offense by saying that it seems you consider the ease with which you move from one low paying job to another an asset and a life style. You appear to turn down or walk away from better opportunities because they are invonvenient, always finding some way to justify your actions. Work is not about you; it is about the employer. The only way to make it about you is to start your own business.I can not imagine what it was like for you to first lose #1 and now DH. Nor can I imagine what it is like to live in a trailor, have relationships with men like HG or FM. I have been blessed with the friends and family in my life, and I have been fortunate to have lived a life of priviledge, both educationally and professionally. My ups and downs can not compare to yours.But my advice to you is to stop making excuses. It was not getting sick that resulted in your losing your home. It was all the decisions you made prior, in which you lived day to day instead of building up savings. FM was wrong to have taken a tone of condescention, and it is a shame HG has chosen to shut you out at this time, and I don't know what you are going to do.But if you are going to cross a chasm, please throw not only the baggage of the past into the depths, but also your attitude. You were doing so well with school, and I truly want you to graduate and embrace the career you desire. But you need to take a hard look at your life and decide how you are going to live today, because the NWIW™ could be bright and full of promise, or it could look a lot like what you left behind.FuskieWho wants to not only hear that you know you can do better but that you are putting doing better into action...
I am short on time to read this.. but if my memory serves..Home Depot asked me to leave. They escorted me out. Right now I don't know what I will do, but to quibble about 15 dollars a month for ice cream is minute. I fell behind without the money coming in from the bus job. I had no work from mid February through mid April. I owe for March, April, May rent. I had no money to pay. I bought food once in May. I keep records of all my expenses. There was no money for rent for I was too ill to drive the bus. I gave FNCCW 25 dollars in March. I wasn't going out, or doing dope, or drinking, or gambling. The cat costs more than the ice cream man if you want to do the Math. You are preaching to the choir. I know what I have coming in, and make no excuse. I have never not for one day been able to afford this place on my own. But, I held it together for a long time, and leave with a fine attitude. Now I must chat about my day at jail.. but I have calls coming in. The charmers at the baby warehouse (hehe) didn't bother to send in my payroll hours. Like I was surprised. I need to get my check while I still have an address. wild :)enjoying this exciting day!
Right now I don't know what I will doI know this is wishful thinking, since it's not possible, but wouldn't it be nice to evict your tenant and move to DE?Capwishes he had a real suggestion
Perhaps the 13! that voted that I spent too much money, though Lord knows, I would like to see anyone live on as little as I do would like to ante up some dollars to pay my 2K rent. No? Well guess what gang. I don't give a F### that I am moving. I might put up a Goodbye and Good Riddance ! sign in the window when I leave . I am sick of this park, sick of HG, sick of Bad Man, and I am sure there are others on my list. Now I do have concerns. I had a "few hits" come up on my background check this AM. THAT is a real concern. Now I have to fix that before I go to jail. Other than that, all went well. So, I have already made the calls to take care of that. So ..more on the list. I can't find my tax records. That is a concern, for I need that for Finaid. Evil bitch SIL was at Social Security yesterday, and the tensions are high. I saw SD #2 today, but my #2 was asleep. I am worried that the "few hits" will show up Thursday at the 911 meeting. I have talked to a job counselor for advice on that subject, and got some good ideas. Well, I have an idea now why I didn't get the job at the juvie hall. Hmmm. But.. I only kept this place so I could see that man,and have a place for my junk. It has outlived it's use. And .. I am wondering what to do with my bed. I leave for Hillbilly Delaware™ Monday. I work all weekend. The child care people are sending my 40 hr check overnight. I can pay my insurance, pack up my sunblock, put my sticks in storage, and get the f$$$# out of here. And.. when I have some money again, I will continue to help out FNCCW, for I am unfailingly generous, which I contend is a virtue. There it is! Now I am off 2 sit in my recliner which no one took away yet, and read the paper. wild :)summing up many posts in one!
FM was wrong to have taken a tone of condescention, and it is a shame HG has chosen to shut you out at this time, and I don't know what you are going to do.This line is the reason why I rec'd Fuskie's post. Apparently a rec for this post meant a "vote" for "Wild spent too much money"? Hmmmmmm?jmc
Perhaps the 13! that voted that I spent too much money, though Lord knows, I would like to see anyone live on as little as I do would like to ante up some dollars to pay my 2K rent. As of 30 seconds ago, 14 had rec'd Fuskie's post. A rec is NOT a vote. jmc, pays $1265/month in rent & no salary until Feb. 2007 so no help is forthcoming from me
But my advice to you is to stop making excuses. It was not getting sick that resulted in your losing your home. It was all the decisions you made prior, in which you lived day to day instead of building up savings. FM was wrong to have taken a tone of condescention, and it is a shame HG has chosen to shut you out at this time, and I don't know what you are going to do.But if you are going to cross a chasm, please throw not only the baggage of the past into the depths, but also your attitude. You were doing so well with school, and I truly want you to graduate and embrace the career you desire. But you need to take a hard look at your life and decide how you are going to live today, because the NWIW™ could be bright and full of promise, or it could look a lot like what you left behind.This is why I rec'd the post. I rec a lot of posts on boards, and I don't consider it a 'vote' for anything, or even agreement with the entire post.And I believe that one should have a sense of urgency about getting a job, especially as one gets older. And you need to factor in potential health problems into your sense of URGENCY to find and keep a steady job. I've had jobs where I disliked some of the people there. But I kept my disgruntlement under control until I found a replacement job. It's just something everyone does. Because we need the money and we are only relying on ourselves. flowerschild
*** APPLAUSE ***Great post!Now that's the Spirit!You go, girl1: )donna
"I might put up a Goodbye and Good Riddance ! sign in the window when I leave .""I am sick of this park, sick of HG, sick of Bad Man, and I am sure there are others on my list."This is what I cheered!!!: )donna
My, we are sounding like that bad man today. Yes, I have made bad choices. I married the wrong person. I did not finish school. I have a superior attitude, for I do not suffer ignorant people. But if my dear readers think I have had a real job that there was some undying urgency to hold on to, I would like to enlighten them. It did not happen. It is a fantasy. There was no job. Now here is FNCCW. She has a job. She has no life insurance. No pension. No savings. She has a go nowhere loser job like I had .. cashier. Loser job. My other friend.. worked 35 years. Cashier. See above. Bad man calls them losers. He is mad at me for he says I am too brilliant and too attractive to be a loser. I lost my husband, my son, and my home. Do you think for one minute that a nickel and dime job will solve this? That is an unrealistic fantasy for the situation I am in. Now the county jobs.. oh yes.. now that would be something worth hanging onto. My other N & D jobs? Well, gone by the wayside. This is a setback. Not hopeless, but burdensome. Hub #1 and I got evicted from a few places in the past. But.. I don't have to come back here any more. There is no one here but #2, and he will get his money. I can check in with my voice mail daily, for I set that up today. But next week.. flame away.. for I will be on the beach. This place shuts down after Sunday night. wild :)let us move on!
Wow!27 recs!I had no idea that many readers were visiting your Kingdom ...: )Cool.d
Wow!27 recs!29 now....Maybe we need a poll on regular readers.jmc
Now we're getting some of the Best Of visitors.MCT
Unreal.But we might as well enjoy the bit of fame before the lights go out here. :)Remember.. unless some intervention occurs.. the WTPK closes down on Monday. :(If you are dying to say.."I told you so, bad Wild!", get thee to the keyboard.wild :)really does not understand what all this fuss is about. Ho hum.
If you are dying to say.."I told you so, bad Wild!", get thee to the keyboard.Not in a million years. Wild, for everything I have watched you go through, you continue to amaze me. A lesser person would have thrown themselves off a cliff by now. Things will work out - you always manage it somehow. I wish there was something concrete I could do to help out.Cindy
Ah!... one who has not joined up with the mobs. I wouldn't want to put what I have suffered this Spring onto many people. But...I really wanted to get out of here. So this is my chance. Even for four months of staying at HG's or Mom Wild's would be a tremendous help, and I could put money up. It's not like HG does not have the space. This is taking a toll on me. wild :)
Remember.. unless some intervention occurs.. the WTPK closes down on Monday. :(Wild,You will be missed. I hope you continue to check in and tell us tales from friends houses, local libraries, your new place, etc.I really want to hear more about the jail job ...DizChick
Even for four months of staying at HG's or Mom Wild's would be a tremendous help, and I could put money up. It's not like HG does not have the space.This is taking a toll on me.wild :)It would take a toll on anyone. Have you had a chance to talk to Mom Wild about things yet?Cindy
This is taking a toll on me.Wild, this is taking a toll on me, too, and I am not even living it.... I am just flat amazed you are on your feet and still fighting....Many lesser souls would be down for the count long before now. I think sometimes you make things a little harder for yourself than they absolutely positively need to be, but you do gut it through, and with great style as well. We all hope Dudley Da Do-right will soon ride into town on a great white hourse, and extend you a helping hand. You are loved by many, Wild (though, truth be told, sometimes you also exasperate many)Best wishes, whichever way you turn...bill
Not in a million years. Wild, for everything I have watched you go through, you continue to amaze me. A lesser person would have thrown themselves off a cliff by now. Things will work out - you always manage it somehow. I wish there was something concrete I could do to help out.Bears repeating.jmc
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